OGL
so we had an interview on sat.. well well.. we were in the room and we waited n waited.. i ended up in e last grp lar.. frm juz warmed up, became cool down n finally chilled..all ppl ard me left lor..
anyway, so as less ppl were ard, i was left w sharon n peipei..den e ogls asked us to do peace by river when daren's impt sms finally came.. den diz ogl came to see tt i was nt playing along..luckily nv read e msg..(phew) but i was so shocked by e sms lar..its nt wat i was expecting to receive..but at least i was now more prepared..
den peipei n sharon went.. it was left wif me.. luckily i still had a new fren (whom i met in the toilet juz a few moments ago wif yanping).. so den weihoong came along.. den he commented sth, but i cant rmb wat..anyway,he came n say he would play a game wif us (e poor 7 left).. so he asked us to raise our left finger, n he turned ard to show example.. den he asked us to raise our right hand n put over our right handside fren's finger.. i tink by then i was smiling.. coz it looked weird having a hand over a finger i guess.. i 4got y.. or probably its juz coz weihoong was joking.. anyway, den on my left was a female (ltr i noe called arianti or sth liddat).. den on my right was a guy(later i noe called christopher).. den weihong said we were supposed to catch our partner's finger but try to prevent our left finger frm being caught whenever in his sentence he mention jj.. i tink by den all of us were starting to smile..so we played e game, n e christopher caught e gal on his right(xinyi) n managed to escape frm me.. den both times it was like tt.. den weihoong was lyk saying, i noe u trying to catch her finger ah (or sth liddat).. i tink his main purpose was to joke n make us smile or laugh..den anyway e last time, i managed to catch christopher's finger already.. but xinyi's was still caught.. den weihong was lyk "u again, ahh, but at least got others succeed" or sth to tt extent lar.. by then everyone was all smiles.. den he was lyk yes, tts it, put on ur big smiles.. rmb first impression counts :) den another councillor was lyk "listen to e guru".. wahahah.. so funny lar.. anyway, so we moved on to e interview rm.. btw, i had tried to talk to argal at first but she seem q shy to ans me or sth.. i dunno lar..
anyway, den we were outside when e guy hu said 'guru'ting was giving us some advice n testing us each other's names..so we discussed..all these while actually e ar gal was q quiet de lor.. den in e interview rm, we ans all e que one by one rite, den e gal started to 'argue' wif one of e guys' ans.. den i juz looked on lar..i din interrupt lar, i mean ppl answering u go n argue for wat..
den aft tt we went off den joel called me.. den he said u din do well during e interview ah.. den i was lyk huh? den i ask how he noe.. den ya, my interviewer told me.. den i was lyk omg.. den he say she say i was v quiet during e interview.. i was shocked lar! i mean wat is e difference lar, everyone juz ans que when asked lor..i mean i did cheer properly, so i din see wat was wrong..den i tot probably e quiet was bcoz i din do wat argal did.. but i rly dunno.. if it was tt, den amira n xinyi oso has same problem as me rite? toking bt amira, i was still asking her b4 e phonecall wat if she dun get it.. den she was lyk telling me tt its prob better den dere is no commitment to stay in jj..n i felt tt was true.. but yet, frm joel's phonecall, i cud see tt i rly wanna become an ogl here.. anyway, so e phonecall.. den joel say she ask him how i am in og.. den he told me he said ok lar.. got interact in og.. i dunno how e phonecall ended, but i only knew i was so shock, piss, i dunno wat feeling it was..sth in e middle of e 2 feelings n nt tt strong as e 2 word.. i mean he only said ok lar! so when i told e other ogmates(gals) sitted in e comrm, i was on e verge of tears..it was den i realise e og ting was so impt 2me..but of course i settled my feelings st away coz i din wanna cry n freak ppl.. i tink it was only unacceptable when it juz hit me, coz aft tt i was fine.. i told clar abt i did badly when she came n diz time i was fine.. q neutral le.. but i was still brooding over y nv defend..i mean such a matter will always be at e bck of my mind, resurfacing ev time it can.. so by aft jp lunch, as we did nth, i was starting to get quiet, not hyper, sad n tired.. i dunno y oso.. i tot it was e OGL ting (i din noe myself) but yet i din tink it had tt much weight to pull me down in my moods.. so sharon suggested pms n i'd agree tts e reason.. i mean dats how i am evtime when i pms oso.. so it was pms (: n probably e news worsened it..
but at least im glad i noe it early... id rather have known e so tt i hav mental preparation b4 i see e outcum.. i dun wanna be looking desperately at e list juz to find my name lor..so now my heart is settled.. anyway, yest 2 events also made me settled more..coz zd say say ok can le.. coz he say dey 不够人手.. so i was slightly relieved.. den conference call at nite, jl said in more detail wat he actually said.. n if e tone was rly lyk tt, i tink was reassured..
so actually i've heard e bad news, though i was helped up again.. so at least now i wud look at e board wif much more preparation.. as in lyk, id bring small hope tt i get in.. but even if i dun, i wun be v upset, coz i was fully prepared for tt outcome.
anyway, OGLs, uall truly rock! thx for all e work uall hav done for us! ni men xin ku le! 你们辛苦了!
SYSW
