question
probably what is lacking is the feel for it (or them even).. been watching drmas of photography.. shud noe long ago bout diz factor.. budden, how do you put it in? that's a que.. i wonder why, but sumhow, i'm onli gd at tt particular thing.. budden it cannot stand as a "topic"... it's juz part of a "topic".. i always wondered y i onli gd at tt 'sub-topic'.. by doing e cover, i tink i understood y.. i did one but messed it up a little wif my hua she tian zu..was tinking of doing another one tt is w/o e 'xtra added' coz i was rly pleased widdit.. bud while copyin out e skeleton, tinkin n noeing it wud b diff.. den a tot tt made me answered e main que.. i stopped trying to redo.. instead i attempt editting.. i noe i wudnt get bck e same quality, sensation as e original.. (which is wat usu happens) but i understood y e first cover n e prev exercise i did was so acceptable.. diz one was wif lurf, memris.. all shown thru the cover.. others mite not, but i saw it at tt moment.. e ex was done wif lurf, n "getting into character of e meaning of e wds"..
which leads to e nxt main que.. den y not get in2 charac in other topics?? coz other topics r wif limits? tt's y i karn do mor personal intrpretatn to it? issit true? or issit juz coz i locked it up.. the condence is not dere at all,tts y, issit? rite, shall not que any further.. brain will burst..
guilt-stricken me
well, was supposed to pick xy up rite.. budden coz nb going, so i nv go lar.. asked bridgers,cs,jy,jony,ryll, marv + hj,aiwen,lj.. ppl not free if not not allowed... so was left wif jy,jony,marv n lj n aiwen(rush aft band summore)..
den was tinking tt moz wun be toking.. prob onli cook toking.. n wun be much too.. budden aiwen wun be reaching til 7+8+so it mite not be on time for e 715arrival too.. so ya.. din go in the end.....
sosory4wasting1+bucksbyjzsendingetime(fornthing...)
neway, juz received e msg tt xy arrived around 645.. dunno y but it's tt early.. shud i say tt probably it was better tt we din go,coz we wud still be missing e picking her time if we went? butbutbut.. sigh, nvm... neway welcum home xy!...
lkslyk i rlychged.. 2dy in tuition,(lykine1stwkafticamebckfrmsy,deytoldmeiturned2bmorechatty,cheery)iwasonlitokintomuadancemate,i was feling vnorm(isnttthowispeak??),askinherboutwathappensumotherday..n mostetimeiwaslistening butdeysaeiturnedmorechatty! so did i?? weeeeelllllllll,, irlywonder.......
denltrhadtopresent (ofallppl,me!!!).. sostartedtoking.. den rlsed was chttering non-stop,n not making sense.. but i wasspr bubbly..wsggorhissingsbhelpmetomyteam... deniwaswondergyisaydtt.. itjzisntwati'lldo!! buti did it..
btirllydunnno! 1parttinksttwasachge,imchging... 1parttinksimnot...i rlly dunno.. if idid, y?? cozofexposure?? really? cozof ferns? really?? i duno...
neway,lessthan2wkstosch...
quoteme
the more i tell myself to act normal, i act weird.. y?? i tink if i dun force myself to act norm, i tink i will b ok...
weird
isitjzmeorwat.. sumhow,2dae,now,i fl weird.. its all norm til i got to e com,cumonl9.. bt.. bt.. y den? if not mabbe it started aft charmed?? issit?? irly duno.. sheesh.. i..i..or mabe it startd bcoz i breathed in too much dust?? i dunno.. but i cumon9,sat down, feeling difft..
songs
music stuck: I DREAM (by sly)
Shall do a Review..
Alltime Favs
Hou Lai * Ni Dui Wo De Hao * Wo Bu Nan Guo * Reflection * Cheng Quan * ChunZhen * Hero
Beaus
Sun n Moon * YingXiong * WuDing * The Dream must Stay Alive * Ai Qing Zhu Yi * Wen etc
Nice(most of Jap n Korean luvsongs) Specially named:
I Believe(overtime!) * ASongForLady * MyMemory * KissofLife * LongVacation(themesong) * WhiteLove
ps. Ken Hirai rox!
Memories(singgrp)
PengYou * DangNiGuDanNiHuiXiangQiShui * HuoChaiTianTang * GuoHuo etc....
Memories(akltg)
If we Hold on Together * Power of the Dream * Nothing's Gonna Stop us Now * Hero * RockyThemeSong
Memories(obs)
High * LeavingonaJetPlane etc..
Memories(sy)
LaoShuAiDaMi * ZuiXiangHuanYoudeShiJie * allJay's songs * LuvLuvLuv * TakeMetoYourHeart
for3ofus:
Pretty Boy * Dancing Queen * American Pie * My Love * Seasons inthe Sun
heartburn
diz is dedicated to a particular devoted reader..(but it has nth to do wif u)
hmm..i've got heartburn since laz thurs..still not sure wat it really is but noe it has sth to do wif gastric juice..but even doc oso not particularly sure if it's heartburn i'm having..i was tinking it's juz an injury frm dance while doing bridge, causing chestpains.. but since he sumhow tink is diz n lemme take a week full of medicine.. n say if still not well den havta go xray liao..
probably wud be brought by mum to see e tui1 na2 shi1 if i still having pains aft e week of medicine..coz tinks is nei4 shang1 frm dance..so i tink e plan will be go tuinashi, if still cant, go xray..
ok, stop here.. having gastric pain liao..sheesh,better eat,if not doc say i nv eat at proper time tt's y i nv recover..
model
"The Models" rox!.. great show, great ppl, great fashion.. shows how different ppl turn models n life.. spotlite on 2guy1gal..or mabbe 1guy1gal..e Main guy is gd!.. of course e gal oso not bad lar..
show is at e same time relating to....sheeh...sigh..
neway, juz wanna say my gd fren rox...haha..
ohya,qingren cuming bck..yay..
15yrs of e wrong route
i knew it.. juz tt it wasnt said. so i was still deluding maself.. now,i carn..now it's demoralising me, crushing me, bashing me, annihilating me.. so i hav went on e xtreme wrong route..how? i always tot escaping it wud solve it.. "mabbe i'll work hard" (which i sort of nv really.. i mean as compared to others,i did e minimum..)
but rlly, i did in hol...i wonder e words said..dosit mean success mite cum my way?hope so but no,dun tink so. evenifit's a probability,tt's onli 1 aspect! e other,is a confirmed utterfailire..juz wait n c n u'llnoemthsaftnxtyr..tilden,sumppl 'l live to regret deir forcefulness..well,itsjuztoobad.
dereiwasencouragingother. isawsamesit.inmebutihadesametinginmindasmyencouragement. perhapsmyactionsdidshowprobabiltyofsuccess, buteotheraspect?!
iworkedtoo..hardwork'sprescencegotbitbetter, butstillremainsameordropping. probablyanotheryrofReAlhardworkwillhelp. butifitfails,'llbesxteenyrofrongroute probaimlesslifeeva..
so yea, it's 15yrs of e wrong route definitely.
another day of lost
xy came online!! on msn.. chatted for a short while onli though..
qingren went thai! nv tell me.. sob sob..
haha, sb came up wif a CRAZY idea..freaky person man...din noe tt person lyk dat wan..get to noe mua fren better..luckily it doesnt happen on me.. phew..
oh no, got dance tml..
haha.. met atan again..
den my tuition class rite, dunno y suddnly so many ppl.. old wan very little onli..our class diz term is lyk full to e brim lar.. dun lyk
went to performance..by zhejiang ppl.. dance n singing performances by handicapped..
it's a charity performance.. so neway, was impresed by e deaf ppl.. they dance wif e music though they cant hear it lar..coz dey got 2 instructors giving them sum kinda instructions.. budden dey can dance wif so much gan jue lor.. i tink if it was me, no music,no 'feel'.. (not as if i had much in e first place but sureli even lesser..) n rite, e gals all v pretty..
got diz boy in front of us, super noisy lar.. very ba dao oso..treat his maid v badly..coz his mum is e mc.. so every time she came on stage, he will raise his hand in "gd" sign n try to attract his mum's attention..dunno how to describe him, but juz v irritating.. if i was e guardian,i wud hav scolded him n make sure he is proper when watching a performance..lyk his sister.. so much better n more mature..
neway, budden e boy v nice to diz little gal..a mother sat beside e boy.. den e gal sit on her lap.. budden e little gal (tink 3yrs old onli) of course bored mah..zong zhi later she was learning frm e boy she was observing.. den e boy realised n started playing wif her.. was v nice to her lar..
call it FaTe
mabbe i was meant to noe atan.. met her on e way to flujab so got to noe her b4 e sy meeting..den now,can even meet her for replacement class lar.. juz so coincidental.. qingren jiu shi qingren.. haha.. so we r fated to meet..
SYSW
