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Gathering on pre-Tchrs Day
so we had a yoga mass display in which we made a record in the big drizzle. but b4 that, i started the day with the hope of getting to dance mass dances. yet, ending up having only one (n actually it seemed near to none lar) >.< cheat our feelings.. hah, but still its a time to get high, although i mean wasnt rly able to high at the start.. had to force myself to cheer.. but it sooned warmed up lar.. hah.. anyway, so aft the yoga display in the rain, leaving us drenched, we watched flying fox n abseiling as we start getting high.. then we threw the caps up as planned.. it looked q nice lar ehz.. haha.. afterwhich we did some fun stuff.. den i went to e csl wishing mr tan tingy.. then on the trip back to ny, i was chatting mainly with sinyu.. den we talked about jj and ny.. i think everyone is quite surprised by how much i love jj bah.. i dunno leh.. lyk there's not much negative things mah.. but it's coming lar.. lyk making this sch into another tourist attraction spot.. zzz.. its enuff to have been 'animals in the zoo' for 4 yrs.. i dun really wish to become yet another animal or bird or even juz simply scenery. ya, so we chat til we reached ny..there, i met not much tchrs.. mrs chang, mr chan, mr tan (but din get to tok to him), mrs tieh, mr ellis, and mr lim.. tts all.. q little.. but had a nice time listening to mrs tieh talk abt her experiences esp the one wif this ntu lecturer.. hah.. and abt our past.. of how fx kena tekan.. aha.. anyway, my main focus is on my fellow 2/1 mates.. the fellow aepers.. so we stayed together for lunch and then for more chat at ps gelare..our chats since we met up on tt day had been everything under the sun! of how all of us are getting "blonder" as in dumb blonds, of gossips (though sadly there was not much), of everyting.. den someone asked the qn among the 7 of us: anyone now attached or getting attached soon admit now.. haah.. den we were looking at each other and there was the silence.. nobody admitted anyting.. hah.. but i bet if somebody raised her hand, another would continue and mabbe yet another.. y i say tt? read on.. so we had our crappy chat on everything.. den later aft shum and charm had to leave, we continued to chat.. den i was talking to dor and stella privately while kc n ek were toking.. den haha.. dey stop suddenly to 'eavesdrop' haha.. so we started chatting one big gang..but that chat with them was real comfortable.. we are all of different characters, but we simply get together n turn gd frens.. its q amazing how our frenship works.. listening to them talk, its kinda different from chatting wif jjcian gals..in terms of e feelings lor.. probably coz nygals are more innocent? but i felt alot more comfortable aft the chat.. haha.. proabably coz dey are direct.. or probably its not abt the schs but the personality of the gang i hang out with.. anyway, den aft tt i was probing n probing n finally got something out of stella.. heard dot had too.. but nah, din get any out of her.. she said it was over.. >.< the other 2 arh, ok, one is no nid say oso noe wan.. so tok abt kc.. hah.. got half of info out of her oso.. q old news probably.. n so i realise i nv tried to keep in contact n get all e updated news abt em.. so like i said, this gang of frens are all v comfortable to be with coz they are v direct n simple.. i wun say im like them coz i may be honest but im not frank i guess.. they dare to say out everything n tt is probably y i luv them.. kc n ek u2 rawk.. dor n stella u2 shitou! even the trip bck with ek n kc was totally funny.. the 2 shorties (heh heh..) ended up being my kids.. coz the 2 are seriously lyk children lar.. hah.. so they start tugging my shirt (more like pulling) saying "mama, pain...." wahaha.. lol.. den i was desperately trying to get them to stop tugging my precious jj shirt.. haha.. then kc tan2 my eyebrow lar! n things started gettng crappier frm then on.. hah.. new vocab.. the left eyebrow is emperor, the right, empress and the nose, concubine! waahahahlol..the 3 of us were laughing like mad on the train.. which used to be wat we always do whenever we went home together.. hahah.. we always get the stares by our crappy jokes and our laughters.. but its rly fun.. n im glad i got to do tt again..haha... anyway before i end, just wanna say uall rock!
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Restless and capricious, you love to travel to exotic places.
You are easily influenced by others, as long as they don't pressure you.
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ive finally stop regretting
ive been doing many things which i deem wrong in the past four yrs. it's as if every step i make was gonna lead to a greater mistake. i always have the thinking that i've made wrong steps in the first 2 yrs of my sec sch life, so those mistakes brought me into worse situations which i forever cannot pull out from. so during my sec sch days, ive been dying to get to a new life in a new sch.. ie let time past faster so tt i can be in jc.. And i was searching for a jc which i needn't see those ppl who are gonna demoralise me further.. yet, ironically, my ideal jc was where most would be heading or hope to head into.. tt jc had been my aim (though i didnt work towards it) which was even decided more strongly during and after my SY trip.. its the best time i had in my whole entire sec sch life, i would say.. and all those with me were all gonna be going straight into my ideal jc.. so of course i wanna work towards there, so as to see them all again.. i rly luv em so much! anyway, so i of course didn't end up in where i din want yet want to be, but i dropped into a totally new environment. a place where i can be said to be totally free from those eyes of those ppl. And overall, i would say i have yet to regret anything ive did right in this sch(: although ive busied myself with alot mroe activities, but im definitely a happier person with all the buzz.. more importantly, i think it's more of the ppl of jjc.. its coz of all my frens, i feel warmth and love, much more than how it was in ny. for tt, i thank all of u. for tt, i thank jjc. i shud probably even thank mr leow n mr ng. had it not been them promoting jj, talking abt the difference being in jj vs in rj or hc.. more ppl get the chance of being leaders, unlike the tough competition in those other schs.. (throw one stone, already a gd quality for leader) anyway, i was saying, had it not been those talk, i mite not have been inspired to decide tt i will take up more leadership roles. Had it not been the 01camp, i would nt be who i am today. so bubbly, so cheered up n even confident. anyway, why i started mentioning this is coz ive had attended 4 meetings altogehther for today in the sch.. luckily all of which doesnt clash. yet, almost all the meetings show me more work i have to do.. it's making me feel like im having too much activities.. yet, im only silently contributing for some..coz im q nosey in the sense.. coz i want to make it gd if i want to do.. so although i am juz a member, i see the potential of the activity if i had the chance to do it.. hence i want to lyk do the job of the incharge.. but im seriously not thinking of snatching anybody's ricebowl. all i simply hope is tt if i put in 200% effort into doing the thing, i wont be denied the effort like not getting acknowledgement for my own idea though they adopting it..i dun need to become some big thing but just a little compliment for gd work, criticism for bad.. but i know i can trust this leader of mine.. i think she has some kinda same tots as me.. so anyway, i think i will continue to put in my fullest for the sch, coz one i find what ive been doing interesting, two,its a sch im thoroughly grateful to.
im MOVING
ppl take note! i'm gonna change the blog address! from angelswan, i'm moving into a new web address: howtinkswork.blogspot.com change ur url of the link soon.. most probably moving into tt blog add by the end of this week(: think most ppl's not gonna see it but it doesnt matter lar rite?
start afresh
haha, for the past few days, it has been high jj spirit.. make me go into holiday mood.. totally no mood to study >.< but just saw my marks n noe i need to buck up.. dun wanna get retained man.. yet.. still missing 1st 3 months badly.. just got the feeling bck.. dun rly wanna give it up.. how did i manage to balance fun n studies then? probably coz work was minimal.. but still.. yea.. anyway, i thought abt all the happenings these 2 wks.. no, its not what i want from my jc life..at least wat i set out on both january n march when i started sch in this sch.. actually i wun say its not.. but the direction looks wrong.. so i want to start afresh.. i starting another term! my own set term.. a term which starts tml.. i must learn to be calm.. i rly must.. i must grow up too.. stop being lyk a kid.. although its gonna be difficult, im sure im gonna make it.. im gonna become the first 3 mths me again.. with more maturity than before.. dun give anyone hopes too.. nor destroy anyone's hope.. its time to stay me.. i dun tink anyone understand what im trying to say.. but yea, its my blog, for myself to understand sometimes.. BTW, must watch ShOwTiMe today!! at 8pm i tink.. if not 830.. doesnt matter.. juz glue urself to e tv frm 8 onwards.. sure wun miss it wan.. unless u r at the wrong channel -.- go Channel 8!
pd opening(:
yet another day of high! yesterday was sort of bz day.. morning go chinese riddle.. budden nv get to see huachwong c dui yuan perform sad sad.. and anywa, we coudnt recognise.. coz there were 3 of em once again budden the smallest one din seem to be e same person.. we din tink its tt dui yuan lar..so nvm.. anyway, the ques were like much harder budden at least still can get some(: heh heh ^^v.. anyway, den slacked in sch until pd opening.. b4 tt even help to carry the canteen tables.. wah, they are totally heavy.. my hands were super wobbly after tt.. cudnt even write properly.. has paper of proof of it lar.. neway, den later was the pd meeting time.. i got to stand at the hall area, tt all e vip go by.. hah.. den q fun lar,get to see whats going on inside hall.. summore can eat guest food even before dey could eat it.. haha.. den mr thm said hi summore.. den get to see tanswiehian oso! artist leh!! aft we were released frm our static ushering job, we were enjoying food.. den we even got to join in the buzz inside the hall.. hah.. watched mutton balls.. den later dere was mass dance!!!! omg.. long time no do lar!.. hah.. heyya.. FUN! den aft tt we lingered around n we started playiing ard.. a formal event turned informal.. in which we were having a train running while they sang for the finale.. den we run run run until we got loads of others to join us.. including the snrs etc..hah.. super fun.. den later we sang songs as a whole big grp.. frm jj songs to chi sngs, so as to include the guests.. haha.. one big circle sing sing n have fun.. den later cheer again.. haha.. actually wun end up sweating wan.. but coz of all the fun, end up sweating lyk yesterday again.. but still it was totally fun! <3 high jj spirit.. too bad some missed the fun.. aft tt we helped pack up e place too.. den we got to eat the orange ice cream.. den finally go home.. feeling totally tired n drained but happy.. imagine, 1 full day of cheer plus yet another day! haha.. yep.. tts all(: rawk on jj!
its Showtime!
tried blogging it the last time but my internet connection was down halfway through the entry..zzz.. so here i am to redo it! first, imagine singing, screaming, jumping, cheering, dancing from 9am all the way til 11+ pm.. hhaha.. how fun can tt be? n how tiRing.. haha.. still it was really exciting.. so we boarded the bus at 9, when we had a briefing by mrleow on the bus.. den we learnt the lyrics of xi shui chang liu.. anyway, must describe the briefing by him.. haha.. coz the last time round, when we went for the recording, we were probably too loud n energetic tt the ppl were all v pissed off by us.. some start to kaobei us.. so leow was totally bushuang.. the rest too.. so we continued to scream n cheer even though the producer and assistants were stopping us.. hha.. imagine. haha..den even the other schs were buisonging us.. some students knock our ppl.. but we din break into a fight with them, fortunately..hah.. anyway, so we are supposed to take instructions frm leow or other counc only.. so even if ppl stop us, we continue until we are stopped(: try decoding tt.. hah.. den we arrived at the mediacorp admin area.. then we started to be loud n rowdy q soon aft when we finally got to go into mediacorp recording area.. partly coz the 'cc' producer asst was out.. haha.. anyway, den at first we were led to be v gui lan.. haha.. specially cheer super loud when the other schs come.. haha.. but we were super high.. haha.. a throng of 30 ppl only.. high like crazy.. hah.. den other schs seem lyk a little bushuang us..we lyk kinda solo ourselves.. other schs came like tt too.. throughout while we were backstage, we kip getting kaobei-ed but we were prepared for it n getting used lar.. different bckstage crew juz continue to attitude us whenever they have to deal with us.. there was this lady whom i actually tot was quite pretty spoiled her image by ranting at us for playing a game of ji nu nai while waiting for our turn to get into the recording studio.. "this is not ur house!" ZZ.. wateva.. haha.. anyway, i was thinking, we've juz made bad rep for our sch at mediacorp..imagine someone who wants to be a star in mediacorp, what will happen if she told them she came from jj? hHaha.. but for me, i personally think tt even if im dying to become a star, i will still proudly tell them tt im from jj.. simply coz im proud of the sch.. the sch made me to be who i am right now.. so i dun care even if dey gonna kick me out coz im frm jj.. coz jj rox(: im sure someone else would recognise the talent.. ok, but i din intend to become a star, so tt was juz role-playing.. hah.. bck to topic.. so aft tt somehow tommy started getting close to some of the st marg's gals.. (jj at the rightmost end, then st margs, den westwood, den ite) den i joined in n made frens with them.. haha.. dere was diz gal tt used to act on tv summore.. haha.. neway, so we were having fun wif em, den got other jjcians to come n join in the fun.. but still mainly me n tommy toking to them lar.. but we were cut off halfway.. den dere was once st marg's started a bomb to us, den we bomb westwood, dey sian sian nv reply..n coz leow toking, we cudnt scream.. so it stopped dere.. yet, aft tt, we (jj n stmargs) came together.. dey even learned our cheer while we were cheering throughout the day such tt when a few of us were toking to them, dey can cheer our wateva cheer oso.. haha..den we all did it to tommy.. n den we started bomb again.. this time, westwood replied.. so it was totally fun.. haha.. den we started to bond alot.. the 3 schs.. cheer together, cheer competition, etc etc.. imagine, from strangers who 'attitude' others to one big grp... its so totally nice.. den wat even spurred me further was when our reinforcements came!!(: haha.. i was so happy to see them.. its lyk ur family members finally came to the foreign country u r in to see you.. its so much warmth <3 jj my family.. den summore is q alot of familiar faces.. ahpei, emily, n loads of other og5, f1 ppl, den some live camp ppl.. wah.. its rly rly nice n warm.. if only i could embrace all of them i would.. i mean it.. (looking back i finally understood the feelings of foreign students.. i mean however warm u are in with all ur other local frens, its always warmer to have others whom are ur family members., like how well we got in contact wif the other schs, it was still more joyful to see more of ur own sch) den later, ahpei sneak backstage wif another nicholas.. hah.. den i was teaching him e chinese version of yipa un de neh for showtime use later during the recording.. he was having super much difficulty lar.. hahaha.. damn funny..hahaha.. ahpei old old cannot rmb words.. haha.. den aft tt i was toking to 2 st margs gals.. no 5 n 6.. haha.. 2 chiobus(: anyway, yep,so we crapped.. den i realise paul n ernest oso sneaked bckstage le.. hah.. but i was toking to my chiobus, so dun care them..haha.. plus tink dey were buzy.. finally aft tt we cheered summore bckstage coz sentiments were high wif the arrival of our reinforcements.. den aft tt no.567 all came to take photo wif me(: so nice of em rite.. haha.. i was honoured of course.. not trying to show off or anything but simply feel lyk im special in their hearts, just like dey are in my heart and so im v happy bout it lar.. its the same i hope to get from other kids tt i especially like mah.. yep yep.. which sometimes i do.. anyway, den soon it was the real thing.. we recorded, we rejoiced, and we screamed, and we ate and we cleared up.. i even started helping stmargs clearup.. den their tchr thanked us.. tink its tt lecturer leow toked abt.. dere was tv backstage for us to see wat was happening lar, so we get to noe our marks, our comments etc.. yep yep.. we got last but we were rejoicing coz it din matter (: haha.. oh ya, aft everyone ended, we wanted to go to the studio juz to like scream wif our audiences wat.. but dey din allow >.<>.< stupid big flirt.. all i can say is u r wilno.2 yux.. den while other schs have a big grp, dere was oni tommy frm our sch tt was going to the studio.. but they stop everyone n he kaobei tommy.. those actions like gonna bash tommy up any moment.. when tommy seriously did nothing lar.. nv even give him attitude face lor.. always tt nice face lar! dun say others, even i want to slap him, kick his ass.. i noe i suddenly sound real vulgar but tts wat i seriously feel at tt moment.. all of us who noe wat happen all diao him lor..one of us was even on the verge of whacking him already lar.. irritating fella.. den aft tt e performers came bck.. hah.. den somebody i tink was chengxun was screaming, "yay! dont need to come back here anymore le!!!" specially scream for the crew to hear.. den we start rejoicing wif all our songs tt we lose(; haha.. all wif happiness wan(: haha.. den happily went bck to sch.. during bus ride, coz no other high ppl, so is we few high together, get whole bus high.. hah..so tiring to be singing n screaming.. but still v high.. den reach sch still continue high.. dance summore.. haha.. den here comes e sick part.. adm.. yux yux yux.. i din even wan to watch lar.. some even video.. eeee.. sick.. but still v high whole day!(: yepp tts all.. HIGH JJ SPIRIT! it shall last 4eva <3
a nice chat
the me right now is totally relieved(: i wonder why oso..haha.. is it juz coz i got out of my EoM n commontest stress? or coz i oso threw out stuff tt i havent been able to throw out? no matter wat, its juz loads of relief(: ^^v happier person than the me for these 2 days.. yep yep.. but still equally tired.. probably coz din get a super long rest to recover from camps.. anyway, yep, so for more than a wk ive been bothered by certain things.. but aft today's chat wif emily, i rly feel v relieved.. cant believe just a few hours ago before the gp common test i was having no mood to study.. stoning here n dere.. while i din do wat my classmates suggest me to do, a chat with emily cleared the rest. plus actually oso coz of some actions of confirmation lar.. i wud hav to say, now i noe who my 'true frens' are.. not saying my classmates are not.. as in ppl who have the same kinda thinking as i do.. i found 1 right here in jj.. though our character may be different in a certain way.. but somehow, we juz have similar thoughts(: so yep yep.. like theres diz certain thing tt i was encouraged by my 2 close frens to do.. budden i juz din tink i shud do tt.. n emily totally agreed with me.. its lyk i juz found someone tt can identify with my feelings n tots abt doing it.. so yep yep.. plus im more relieved probably coz she would help ^^ of course im gonna help her in wahtever way i can too.. after having her shared her tots with me.. yep... anyway, so im relieved tonight.. lyk lots of heavy load taken away from me (: so happy lar(: but now frettng coz like more n more ppl noe when i wanted nobody to noe.. crap crap.. tsk.. hopefully nothing will happen coz nothings going on rly.. not until em's help given me the signal..yep.. oh ya, she commented tt it can be seen from the face tt one got someone he or she lyks..for tt, im hmm, kinda happy? lyk i actually have an effect? hah.. yea.. bhb a little bah.. btw, emily, if u r reading, thx for listening to me the whole evening n thx for sharing too(: im lurving n feeling lurve as frens^^ lets share more in the near future (: promise to tink of u when i have anything i want to confide ^^
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