true colours
oh well, i had a great big mass dance session from 5 to 7+ tonite.. lalala, it was great! hahah..wanted to be dcettch so was q conscious of wat im doing.. plus was wif dunno de ren, so q careful lar.. den aft i tink ard 2 dance den i gave up.. i dun wanna care abt em le.. juz dance! esp when heyya came up!
neway, im here to tok abt colours.. well,i did hav an entry b4(which i deleted) tt supports diz.. but tt entry was nt exactly facts, so cant stay as an entry.. budden i finally found out how cs lyk.. so i i nthing to say lar.. juz can say im q irritated? oh well, i gt rly upset while dancing lar..more of aft actually coz while dancing, can at least throw away all tt feelings n get high! though those pissing n saddening stuff do come back once in a while, but of course im still enjoying e great mass dance! i realise dance rly req full commitment.. juz one outside tot n it affected my actions lar..
neway, i was rly q affected.. i realise im e type tt frens is always on e top of my list..so when i see certain colours frm dem (e one tt start w t?), i get q upset.. lyk i mean esp frens i erm starting to get close to? juz within less than 2 full months ive experience it frm 2 ppl? oh well,i gt nthing to say.. im juz dumb in lking for clse frens i guess.. only found one really really really GREAT fren of mine.. though we dun rly tok alot to each other, i juz sense a certain connection w her? not frm recent mths lar.. lets see, we've shared frenship for almoz 2 yrs? 1 more mth to go n its 2 yrs lar.. each time i tok to her, deres juz a certain feeling i get lor.. dunno wat oso.. chemistry? mabbe.. so i've been sort of close wif her? shes a great person whom i'll rly trust..i mean i trusted her not aft long frenship but rly w/in a day or two tt we rly toked in depth w ea other?
so ya, for few ppl whom i've placed a certain high percentage of trust n oso had been seen as fitting 'qualities' of a close fren, i guess i can only say im disappointed.. now im wif lds of erm i dunno, disappointment? hah.. but still, dere will be tomorrow,(wif me continuing putting more trust here n dere) n more hope of seeing more lyk my 'chemistry' fren (:
btw, blue bear rox! thx fren!^o^
SYSW
