regrets
today is such a hectic day lar..hah..will rmb today so much.. 20th May 2006 ( 20052006 )<--so cool rite, juz realised.. neway.. ya, i started the day with a run and den seeing hc ppl paint the autism sch, wondering who was dere..then a meeting wif tjyouths especially early (12).. n e best ting was i din check todays date.. so i kinda forgot i had a performance to watch.. coz i rmbed by date.. i was still happily agreeing to do home visits at 6pm until i saw e sms ziyu sent me asking me meet where.. i was still tinking if she got e wrong date, until i checked the calendar and it was 20 may!! omg.. i was screaming.. shit!! den i almoz announced to e whole world tt i was supposed to catch a performance.. n my fren's tickets were wif me.. n den reminded to check e time etc, den convinced tt i can catch it in time if i rush off now, i ran off.. it was lyk a v v big blunder lar.. sigh.. so blur.. anyway, i tink i looked v lang2bei4 when i was screaming juz now..in e end, my fren came later dan me.. but we still went in in time though..
so i was watching, expecting only 1 known face, but yet i spotted so many lar!! den ard the audi were more frens.. den those ppl ptging e autism sch was my frens lar.. xl's class.. den at e 2nd half i spotted more ppl.. i mean at e finale i saw ainan n i was so totally shocked!! den i went on stage n saw junhong! omg.. i din see em dancing lar! so wasted! but at least thruout i was mesmerised by meiling.. i was real happy for her lor.. i mean we've seen how she's grown and for her to get where she is, im rly rly happy for her.. now i noe wat it means to be happy for someoneelse.. i rly felt it.. so thruout, it was diz familiarity in an unfamiliar place.. dere was a certain yearn to be joining t club d sch.. i mean its a total familiar place, close faces, close culture.. yet although different, i lyk jj culture too.. but dere was tt urge to go into e sch.. so i was tinking abt how i regretted by sec yrs.. had i worked hard, not juz in studies but everyting else.. i wudnt have been in tt situation.. had i not been feeling e way i had in my 4 yrs, i cud hv gone further.. but now, i want to tell everyone, hey, pls discard me in tt four yrs.. see e correct me!
i noe its been q messy n random when posting.. but im juz throwing words n feelings down..
SYSW
