a saddening situation
my paternal grandmother just suffered a stroke yesterday. my mum called me yest while i was in sch, getting me ready to leave sch whenever i had to to visit my ahma.. she told me doc said ahma cudnt make it thru midnite.. at tt moment i was totally shocked. rly.. i mean she's always been so strong, much stronger than ahgong.. i exclaimed a real loud HUH when i heard it.. so while i was studying the tt stupid chem test, i was waiting for the instructions to lyk leave sch, though at e same time, not rly wishing tt would happen. It came n my whole family went to the hospital to see my grandma..
throughout the trip there, the atmosphere seemed tense..of course i was kinda tense too..but u can see that my dad wasnt concentrated on his driving.. kips stoning while mum was toking to him. my bro no longer slps on the car unlike how he usu do.. but i felt my mum was her usual self.. probably coz of negativity.. shant mention more. den we reached soon. n was helped by a samaritan driver while trying to park the car. tt was a gd sign.
that was my first visit to the hospital. it had no 'grandiose' or whichever that i expected from those shows etc.as in like how i imagined the hospital to be like is not how it rly is. its just yet another building, the doctors were simply yet another occupation who dresses in tie, drives, n need to park their cars, the nurses were just ppl with big hearts. tts all. there wasnt a special format to how the buildings were, there was no significant things which presents the place as a hospital at all, except for signs n stuff related to hospital of course.
anyway, so when we reached, we met up with the other uncles and their families.. it then occurred to me tt its been a loooong time since i last seen all of them.. not even new yr..that brought me to this ironical thought.. it's only when something serious happens to a loved one linked to all will the Whole Family be brought together. I mean its like if it were an operation on one of our uncles (touchwood), most probably would be the brothers go see him.. mabbe together with their wives, mabbe not. even when the last time round, my grandma fell and fractured her leg, only the adults went.. most of e kids stayed home.. but this time, the stroke caused a prediction tt ahma cant last for long... its so grave and tt is why everyone came.. no excuses.
to me, it just seem quite ironic.. id think it applies to all other families too.. coz i saw another big grp of family like ours was staying around too, on the other side of the sofa.. i think their grandparent had some major problem too.. but i noe its not death-causing type.. yep.. this family oso seem to not have seen everyone for v long.. the greetings btwn the small families show "long time no see".. yea.. so juz found it q ironical.. anyway, hope ahma will be fine..
continued aft 21/7..
my grandma passed away on 21/7 4am.. we had been told on 17/7 tt she might not last through the night.. her conditions were q serious.. coz vomit had blocked one of her lungs coz she fell on one side when she fainted.. high blood pressure is also another problem.. actually other than tt, all others are fine.. eg, her heartbeat was counted healthy.. oh and anyway, breathing using that triangular mask thing is actually different from those on tv.. at least for my ahma, tt thing helps to suck the air out of her and give her fresh air.. u can see her whole mouth being sucked up and open..
back to topic.. coz prediction was not over 17/7.. yet, she lasted until the end of nxt day.. so i tot she's gonna turn out fine.. esp coz she lasted over17, over 18, and 19 and 20.. its 3 days more than expected.. yet, the shocking news came in the morning when i woke up at 5+ when i heard tt she has gone.. i woke up especially easy tt day.. there was no need for continuous attempt to wake me.. and once awoken came the news.. it was rly q shocking.. n i had to leave sch immediately aft lessons end to go for the funeral.. the sat n sun were 2 long days when we woke up early in e morning, go back home real late, or shall i say early.. i even missed watching this performance by dance ensemb, coz not allowed entertainment during this period.. and the rest of the days are continual going to near the voiddeck of ahgong's house from school..tue was the day ahma chubin.. it was also the day im supposed to have my physics spa.. i din wan to miss ahma's chubin coz i din tink its nice not to be present although shifu say its ok since im havin exams.. plus ahma came to my dream b4..also coz ive nv been in this type of procedures before, i din wanna miss it.. anyway, so i decided to change the dates of my SPA on mon morn... den so on mon night.. i almost stayed over at the wake for the whole day.. i was asked to slp in my father's car, until lyk nxt day morning when the sun was not rly up yet den we got to go home to washup b4 going back for chubin..
throughout the funeral period, the uncles all look fine.. sometimes joke around.. still in the mood to play.. have fun.. but on chubin day, the last prayers we made to ahma (oh ya, we had loads of prayers to ahma) was q solemn.. then we walked rounds round ahma.. somehow, everytime i was nearing her, i could feel the grief over me, despite having q poor relations wif her.. the last round round her, i almost teared but of course its so little tt it can be controlled.. esp oso coz e shifu stopped us from doing so.. yea.. some of my uncles n wives teared.. but of course they controlled it until they stepped out of the area.. my secondyoungest uncle was especially obvious tt he was upset, coz u cud see his eyes all wet even while he juz stepped into the area, making offerings..
anyway, i would think this whole thing bonded the BiG Family.. or mabbe its juz for me.. i was closer to my cousins than before.. the uncles din feel as unfamiliar as b4 too.. so dere's still a tinge of irony of the situation..
SYSW
