the forever follower
oh well. i've decided. im just not cut out. i'm only capable to work, capable to think and give ideas. when im in charge, i'll nv do things well. not becoz i lack working ability but i lack the sense of calm.
i tink im probably overworrying all e time. so long its a responsibility, i take it too serious. does not mean one should take it lightly, but juz coz i see responsibility as 1000tonnes heavy. tt is y. and it seem that everyone can see it when im worried. probably coz i get too serious. now i noe better.
i must learn to take things easy. rly. im too serious in life. i must know how not to kancheong. responsibility aint such a heavy load. throw it out. so that i wont be so stressed.keep it cool man. kan cheong will not only get me nowhere, but it can even make one look weird. maybe i can start from my life. its time to not worry n scream over small stuff. all i can say is STOP wOrrYing! hah..
not oni tt, i think im too dumb. mdmsmsa already say she want the whole box, i still offer the teachers again >.< den worry was all written on her face tt my teachers would take a piece. but of course they were streetsmart to noe not to. so the only dumb one is me. not tt i havent notice. but me n my big mouth, thinking it being out of politeness.. den i notice the worried face on mdmsmsa, wanting to save the whole box b4 i offer anybody again. heh.. so i totally showed stupidity in front of my home'mistress' n my tchrs. what nice mouth i have. -.- sigh, can blame my kancheong virus yet again.. kancheong mah, den nv tink of the whole picture. kancheong lar, see how much trouble it has landed u.
even in playing ball.always kancheong. stress urself. den throw wrong. kick oso abit. nv knew what is stop ball. i tink both games i kancheong is coz i keep thinking the ball should continue to move all the time. i muz nv break that movement. but i hope now i noe better. hah.. at least aft the game on mon, though im still useless, but i understand how they noe where to throw the ball to pass to ur fellow players even w/o looking. its juz coz b4 tt u already see where all ur players are, n decide on who to pass is more correct according to their position and the attacks. hahah.. i bet ppl who play ball would laugh.coz its sth understood. but to me, i tink coz i totally oni pay attention to the ball n nowhere else, tt is why. but rly, now i noe better.
so stop kancheonging. if i cannot learn to do tt, forget abt any big shortterm dreams. even long term ones.
SYSW
